On the last day of 2017, I heard a message from Psalm 37:4 in my church meeting. This was the perfect way to start the next year – ‘Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart’. This made sense to me at the time, so I thought. But it’s amazing how a year later, I see this verse and I interpret it with a completely different perspective.
It amazes me how often I can come across a verse in scripture, or a passage, until a year later I read it again, yet God speaks to me in a completely different way. So here I am in the beginning of 2018, sticking the verse up on my wall and writing it down in my calendar and my journal.
I understood this verse to mean – if I delight myself in the things of God as my priority, then He will give me other things that I desire. If I love God, obey His commandments and prioritise Him in life, then He will surely give me everything that I ask of Him. The Lord has truly blessed me this year in far greater ways than I could have asked for. Writing my prayers down, I can go back and place a tick next to almost everything I prayed for.
I say ‘almost’ because …
There are prayers that God answers with a ‘wait’. I don’t understand why, but I trust Him because He loves me and truly wants what is good for me. But continuing to pray, I began to come back to this verse that is on my wall, calendar, journal and Bible; and really wondered what I was missing. ‘But Lord, I have lived in obedience, I have faith that you are able, I know that you can do all things’ …
Until it hit me 330 days later. I wasn’t missing anything but a true understanding of this promise in Psalm 37:4. God gives me good things because He is good, not because I deserve it- like grace, salvation and eternal life. Yes, God wants us to make our requests known before Him and the blessing is already prepared for the right time.
What I didn’t realise is that God IS the desire of my heart. This is how I’m created – with a desire for my God, a yearning in my soul for communion with Him daily. God is very clever (obviously) because He draws us near to Him. Us as humans, will continue to have a yearning for God which nothing else can satisfy, except for Himself. This is what He wants – for us to come back to Him every day, talking with Him, praising Him, placing our needs before Him. He wants to have that relationship with us.
God IS the desire of my heart and by delighting myself in Him, He is giving me my true desire – Himself! How magnificent is our God, in that, He wants to fulfill our desire for Him through His word. Blessed be His name forever.